You know what really pisses me right the fuck off? I'll tell you. Being forced to say thank you for things I didn't ask for. Specifically for things I don't want. Especially when I'm forced to enjoy it after being yelled at for being lazy.
Hey I have a fucked up hip and it hurts to walk around. Let's try to recreate our manifested idea of how others should view me in a way that requires me to be continually moving putting myself in more pain. Then(!), lets start doing some of this stupid shit and then blame our lazy 17 year old for not volunteering his time after school where he wants to listen to music that I don't like instead of helping me to do something totally pointless that nobody else cares about, not even my husband, just to give myself the illusion of someone actually giving a flying fuck instead of waiting until I have hip surgery to do all of this stupid shit and having unrealistic expectations for my 17 year old because I know and he has told me that he thinks it's pointless. This child of mine "need[s] an attitude adjustment." I, on the other hand, think completely clear, sensibly and logically.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
People: My Least Favorite and Favorite Thing
Saying I don't like all people is unfair. Some people are tolerable. Other people I simply can't stand. One thing specifically that gets on my nerves is flamboyancy in females. Unless its a chick in a band or if they are just straight-up-fucking-awesome, like Karen O. I need to come up with a successful method of making them calm their shit down.
The real problem I seem to have is with my own friends, though. I find flaws in people which is extremely easy when I am with certain people a lot of the time. Some friends I need breaks from others I can't stand a lot of the time others I start to wonder why I don't hang out with them more until one thing, like, a complete disregard for others convenience, makes me think less of them. (Un)fortunately for me, when ever I get around the ones I don't like some of the time I instantly fall right back. Which I can deal with.
This is why College is looking more and more appealing every day. If it were up to me I would go to San Francisco and live out my college years and then find new friends and stay and be moderately happy. I say moderately happy because I would probably end up finding friends who I only like to a certain extent because unfortunately the likelihood of me finding my perfect friend is slim at best. But at the end of the day: I'm in San Francisco, bitch.
Realistically speaking I won't be going to San Francisco until college is over because I don't live there and non-resident prices are basically double. If everything works out, though, I will be going to somewhere in either Chicago, St. Louis, Colorado or Minneapolis.
What I'm really trying to get at is that I need to take in all of the life lessons my parents have to teach me so I can survive on my own, and then do just that. Independence works for me. Codependence wouldn't work out so well because there will always be something that you are doing wrong that gets on my nerves. Unless of course you are my favorite person in the whole world, in which case: Flaw-it-up!
The real problem I seem to have is with my own friends, though. I find flaws in people which is extremely easy when I am with certain people a lot of the time. Some friends I need breaks from others I can't stand a lot of the time others I start to wonder why I don't hang out with them more until one thing, like, a complete disregard for others convenience, makes me think less of them. (Un)fortunately for me, when ever I get around the ones I don't like some of the time I instantly fall right back. Which I can deal with.
This is why College is looking more and more appealing every day. If it were up to me I would go to San Francisco and live out my college years and then find new friends and stay and be moderately happy. I say moderately happy because I would probably end up finding friends who I only like to a certain extent because unfortunately the likelihood of me finding my perfect friend is slim at best. But at the end of the day: I'm in San Francisco, bitch.
Realistically speaking I won't be going to San Francisco until college is over because I don't live there and non-resident prices are basically double. If everything works out, though, I will be going to somewhere in either Chicago, St. Louis, Colorado or Minneapolis.
What I'm really trying to get at is that I need to take in all of the life lessons my parents have to teach me so I can survive on my own, and then do just that. Independence works for me. Codependence wouldn't work out so well because there will always be something that you are doing wrong that gets on my nerves. Unless of course you are my favorite person in the whole world, in which case: Flaw-it-up!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Because It Serves MY Agenda
Once again, people easily irritate me. The thing that never fails to annoy is people's constant need to refuse to understand logic.
Example that caused this post: All people, excluding two of my friends and House, seem to think selfless deeds exist. People don't do things to make other feels better. Sure it makes one feel good to see a friend or person you helped out succeed but that's exactly my point. I don't hold doors for people solely because of the happiness on their face but because it makes me feel good.
There is no such thing as a selfless deed. I don't believe it. It makes no sense. People are selfish. Often times we will do things that make others hate themselves because it serves our agenda.
This is something people don't seem to get. People are going to do what they want to do, how they want to do it whenever they want to do it. It might not be good for you, but hey, we're humans: We're heartless bastards, sometimes.
Example that caused this post: All people, excluding two of my friends and House, seem to think selfless deeds exist. People don't do things to make other feels better. Sure it makes one feel good to see a friend or person you helped out succeed but that's exactly my point. I don't hold doors for people solely because of the happiness on their face but because it makes me feel good.
There is no such thing as a selfless deed. I don't believe it. It makes no sense. People are selfish. Often times we will do things that make others hate themselves because it serves our agenda.
This is something people don't seem to get. People are going to do what they want to do, how they want to do it whenever they want to do it. It might not be good for you, but hey, we're humans: We're heartless bastards, sometimes.
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